Dark Beauty by Matasha Y. Lee

Dark Beauty by Matasha Y. Lee

You are not a mistake,
but a decision made within the heavens.
You were birthed in utter darkness,
But you brought light into the world.
You sung into the moons and the stars.
No you are not a failure but a completion
Of God's hands that molded perfection.
Every single part of you
From your skin to your nose
Was perfectly crafted so Beauty can know what it should look like.
Yes, Love honors your existence and your very being was made for a time as this.
Do you recognize the voice that you speak.
Do you honor the words that cross your lips.
You have forgotten that you are the pure gold
That man seek.
You are the enchanted one
That the world desires to discover.
You drive out hate with love.
You are the shadow in the dark moon rising.
The very echo in the waves of the sun.
You are the cause of commotion within the earth realm that evaporates nature to seek an answer.
Power bows down to you for you to do as you please.
You are the heavenly choice
And the Angels sit to wait to hear you sing.
Your skin is painted with the finest of the earth's core.
Your eyes painted with the whitest snow.
Your lips carved into perfection.
You are the starving artist's voice.
The rich man's treasure.
You are the clouds above that whisper
Well done.
You are molded to shape the thunder that roars in the sky and the lightening that strikes.
Fear not your hips and fine shape.
Fear not how you were created to be.
Everything about you is a story of unfolding.
Beauty's first song.
The night's lullaby.
Love who you are and
Agree with the manifestation of your being.
Let you not forget
Who you really are.
Not the identity given to you by the world or the name your mother called you.
She had her time to cuddle you and shape you,
But this is your season to speak and say,
This is Who I AM.
I have awakened from my sleep,
Tossed away the chains that bounded me.
I stand powerful in my truth.
Dark Beauty is my name.

I want to be born again by Matasha Y. Lee

I want to be born again by Matasha Y. Lee

Lay me down by the river
Place me in the water
Let my body feel every molecule
I will close my eyes
Do not lift me till you see my body fully transformed
When you see light open the sky
And hear a voice say, "Well done,"
Then let me go!
For when I rise,
I will not be the same.

Returning to the place of Drowning by Matasha Y. Lee

Returning to the place of drowning by Matasha Y. Lee

I sit at the bottom of the sea
Engulfed with the water
I lose sight of my last breath.
Above the surface is not where I desire
To resign.
My place is here,
Beneath it all
Desiring to swim but I only sit until I lay
And ask myself is this the place
Where I will let it all go
Every hope,
Every dream,
Every chance to see the sun awaken over my head
And the stars smile at me.
Is this it?
I release a tear as if it mattered.
It was within the water.
I release myself to float
After opening my eyes and I could still see.

It has been years since my drowning.
I really, at that moment, wanted to stay within the water.
I wanted to awake on the other side of the sun
And become back part of the stars.
I wanted to feel weariness go away.
I returned to the place of drowning
Not to return my body
But the chains.
I have no need for my past
All of my pages are empty.
A new life has emerged within me.

Pen, paper and tears by Matasha Lee

Pen, paper and tears by Matasha Lee

Some pain can make you lay your pen down
And choke every word that desires to come
As you attempt to reach down and grab the pen
The very air leaves your body
And life begins to wrestle with your soul
And the kid that danced within
Now only weeps.
As much as I desired to go back to that paper
And let it all go
It felt as if I was ripping in two.
I wasn't ready to let go
I wasn't ready to believe.
I wanted to break free from the veil that covered my eyes.
I wanted to feel my chest move accordingly to a normal breath.
It isn't easy but ink is meeting paper,
And they are holding hands.
My heart says, Are you ready
To deliver a word again.
I am not
But I push to sing a song of
Surrendering all
And letting what will be,
Will be.                                                                    

You live in my dreams by Matasha Lee

You live in my dreams by M atasha Lee

I can't talk to you anymore
Nor physically can I hold you
And you are no longer here
And my hearts yearns to have you near
But in the midst is now where you belong
In the morning dew is the only place I can witness your love.
You have to show up in the wind
Or in a beautiful song.
You spoke to me through music
And told me not to forget love.
I carry you with a sacred place
And each day I choose to let you go,
The more we connect in spirit.
When I am afraid you appear
In my dreams I see your face
And even though you are no longer here
I can still feel your warm embrace.
You let me know it will be okay
And trouble doesn't last always.
Your birthdays are now memories
Holidays are moments of silence
But in my dreams you forever live on.
I will wait for you tonight.

Love,
Your daughter 💕.                          
                         

May I heal your heart by Matasha Lee

May I heal your heart by Matasha Lee

I will not point out the flaws of those who came before me
Because every decision they made helped teach lessons that now become my blessings.
It molded you into the man
I can now call my heart.
You may not see that bright star that led me to you
But God gave me traveling grace and a map to
Point me to where you are.
You are my reflections of prayers
That molded me to become a part of you.
Yes, I see you because I see me
And my sight isn't distorted by the images of wants
But a deep intimacy of love that is unconditional.
As my soul heals I can gather with your heart
And we can dance under each moonlight that our nights will have to offer.
Each sunset we embrace will sing sweet melodies
And our morning will be cherished too
As I look over my shoulders to see you there.
We are whole that is why we can be as one.

Butterfly song by Matasha Lee

Butterfly song by Matasha Lee

Wings of perfection,
Strong and bright,
Life's winds sing as you dance with music in the sky.
Life's cares

has becomes life's dances
As you play amongst the other beauties that fly with you.
You find pleasure in the twinkle of the sun.
Many admire every aspect of your being and you know that nature waits for your arrival as the midst of spring gleams the air.
But, you only imagine within the cocoon that that is what life has to offer to you.
Because as a caterpillar the admiration wasn't there
And in your size you felt defeated.
You seen what you could become
In your heart, you knew, but
Time made you wait
As you crawled through the dirt
And was only seen as bird food.
Many laughed at your thought of flying amongst the trees.
They saw only your right now.
You have no wings,
But you have come from a mighty long way
Of caterpillar days.
Fragile, but being perfected.
You are in the precious moments of delivery
Waiting to see one wing reach the new day offered
Then another to begin the life that calls your name.